heavy eyelashes ; go PRO.

Chapter M58

2011-05-14T21:35:00.003+09:00

consider them as the best gift in my life from 2005 - 2009

that could ever be given to me by God.

Chapter M57

2011-05-14T21:20:00.002+09:00

GUESS WHO'S BACK?

Chapter M56

2010-03-21T19:07:00.002+09:00

damn right shit happens. if i go with the flow, dejavu will happen. damn it. i fall easily man. damn damn damn damn it.

i need my stocks. seriously. i really wonder what is paid for being in this situation. thats liek the 3rd. 3rd this year, gaddammnit. sanang banar kali aku ani inda ja? cam baie.

Chapter M55

2010-03-20T09:54:00.003+09:00

mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmwatcha sayyyyyyyyyyyyy?!

im living a...great new life at the moment in katok. new friends, new gang. hahahaha its great to be around people who get your jokes. although theyre not as LOUD as my girlfriends, all is fine =] i miss them lots =(

i open-ed a new club @ sch. its called Ultimate Frisbee. the first meeting was a success although only 11 members showed up. i hope the next meeting would be as amazing as the first.

btw, hey ptem girlfriends and bella =P dibah and i liek this guy in sch HAHAHAHAHAHAH. we call him Carl =P and fyi, hes just hot n cute n sexy, bukan labih k? HAHAHAHA. mun labih org lain tu. c dibah got her baby, i got my angel HAHAHAHAHAHA. well you guys know who is it oredi soooo puii im not writing names here HAHAHA.

bah cuti jua ni oi belladeenamimifathingmahmeowpeeweezehainjalilahdd!!! nama sapa ku missed? sorry =S BAHHH JALAN EHH!!!!

Chapter M54

2010-02-28T00:46:00.004+09:00

Amira Abu Bakar we went to miri with manager tadi..so sad nada kamu :(

fak that. i didnt know. mcm. antah eh.

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he's leaving tomorrow morning @ 12.20pm. masuk gate @ 11am. so after tomorrow, id hafta wait. until november hopefully. this year's gonna be tough. going into form six. everything will be alien-ish, since i come from an all-girls school. guys will be everywhere, told myself to just wait for him, but what if i dont? temptations~ come on, 5 years being with only girls as classmates, schoolmates? sampai there arent any guys to crush on, they take on the male teachers. hahaha man memories being in an all-girls school. but yeah, i wont give up. im not giving up.

22nd September 2009. 2nd day raya. grandaunt's crib. that was... 6 months earlier. i was watching tv, sitting down mcm anak samseng, holding the remote, shuffling channels, then i heard the doorbell, i didnt care who it was, cause i had quite a foul mood that day. i went to the kitchen, fetch myself a glass of water, then came back for the tv. suprised, i saw him, in his gray cara melayu, alone, shuffling channels. his family are at the other living room, chatting w others. he was sitting right on my seat. he saw me, he looked back at me. gosh, i fell in love. i just went and sit at another sofa not far from him. trying to be cool, i asked him "what channel are we watching?" he just smirked and passed me the remote. he's very quiet. i didnt care what we watched. because he was there.

31st January 2010. thats a long time since i saw him in September. kept on praying that ill see him again. i was sitting alone, leaning on the hospital's wall. granny's asleep. usu went to the canteen to eat. i felt drowsy. i fell asleep. a few minutes after that, i heard a salam. i woke up, sat upright and looked at the door. it was his dad and uncle. i stood up, and made way for the bathroom. i looked disgusting. after reapplying a coat of gloss, i went out, suprised to see a lot of people in the room. usu was there, sitting with a couple of aunts on my granny's bed. granny was on her wheelchair, talking to people in front of her. i sat back to the place where i used to be before, and played my games back. the aunts were talking about swimming. automatically, i told them "aku inda pandai swimming hahaha" they laughed and said "bohhh~" i laughed aswell, and when i looked up in the bed's direction, he was there, looking at me, smirking. gosh, i didnt know he was there! he was in black and so was i. he was wearing his flip flops and so do i. fashion sense, he's good. he had a haircut. it looked awesome on him. i kept looking at him. come on, i couldnt help it.

prayers. guts. belief. patience. i want to see him again. i really do.

ill wait. ill try. its going to be really tough, but i wont give up. im not going to give up.

Chapter M53

2010-02-24T20:20:00.000+09:00

I LOL'D THE SHIT OUT :')

Chapter M52

2010-02-22T11:56:00.009+09:00

DELAYED PICTURES FROM THE REUNION~!

L-R : Amal, Adibah, Nazihah, Azimah, Ain, Ajeerah, Nisa, Nurul, Meow.

ahm... c Gee and Khai came a few minutes after this picture was taken. big thanks to our photog, Met, who managed to juggle 6 cameras all at once HAHAHA.

my girl and me. DIG THOSE GORJIOUZZZ WEDGEZZZ MANN

Happy Birthday To : Reunion Party (whut?)

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thats Bella i was hugging

us in action, tryna keep our feet in the newspaper. tu, see fathin and dibah behind, noobs HAHAHA.

EMG PINK UNDIEZZZ.

when the newspaper wuz folded into a quarter, only 2 feet(s) can fit in, sooo Bella told me since she's lighter than i am, she'll just jump on me. srly, carrying 48kgs and standing on my toes for liek 5 secs, ITS PAIN. you see those people tryna figure out how to win the last round? MWAHAHAHAHA

we won, of course :P

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THE EPIC STORY.

TRALALALALALALALA. God, the PRESSURE PLAYING THIS GAME WAS HEAVY. semua org belaju. Zeh even paused to EVERYSINGLECHAIR which was behind her, yatah c Ain marah tu HAHAHA

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now the fun part;

BOOM

POW

yeap, i told you the story, and this is how it looked liek.

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heyy, i wasnt that heavy, right?

LOLZ I GOT THIS FROM PEEWEE'S BLOG.
the BEST picture yet.

bah, cemana ni? KHAYAL SUDAH.

Ain.
looking ever soo gorjiouz. im gonna miss her and her sweet delicacies. she spoiled me too much w brownies and cookies :(

AND MY GIRLS~ (8)

DONG DONG CHAI.
Dibah, Fathin, Bella and Me inda sampat meliat. DEEP DEEP. time kluar minum tia sudah durang ah. bukan tah rezeki ku meliat DONG DONG CHAI this year :(

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i miss the girl far left :(

Chapter M51

2010-02-20T22:03:00.002+09:00

HEY HEY. i just had an AH-MAZING time w my close friends a few hours ago. had a reunion party, got games too you know. got... pop the balloon w butt (me & bella, WIN), newspaper dance (did a spectacular pose lastly, yatah manang HAHAHAHAHA), in & out shit (adakah kana bawa becakap kluar ku pulang HAHAHAHAHAHAHA) and musical chair (GAME PALING BRUTAL! story below)

ada this certain round... dibah and i mcm...klaie kan krusi lah. skali ada this ONE SPECIAL CHAIR SHINING SO BRIGHT~! we run for tha chair, placed our buttocks on it and langgar langgar. fortunately for dibah, the krusi licin, and i fell down, LEFT-BUTT FIRST. GADDAMN THE PAIN~!!!! tapi the next round... c dibah kluar jua HAAHHAAHHA.

took lotsa pics. plus i saw Awy, Kim, Pith and Met today. EMGGGGGG THANKS FOR COMING GUYSS ALL THE WAY FROM MD!!! appreciate it srsly.

plus i missed the lion dance!!! aigooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo THE PAIN~!!! ITS STABBING ME!!! i really want to see the lion dance so bad :(

we sent dibah home. NAIK COOPER YO LOL MCM PUSU KAMI BLAKANG AHHHH.

hmmm... the photo doesnt work zzz.

Chapter M50

2010-02-08T18:56:00.005+09:00

my result's breakdown;

Bahasa Melayu - B C C

English - B B A

Maths - B B

Amaths - D D

Geography - B B

Physics - B B A

Biology - C A A

Chemistry - A B A

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theres just one thing i strongly protest, i got only one A in Physics and yet, overall, i got an A. while in Biology and Chemistry, i got 2 As and yet i overall i got only a B. and English, same result as Physics, overall i got a B for it. well, maybe i got the lower B and C in Chem, Bio and Eng which pulls my marks down. i couldve gotten 4As. but Alhamdulilah, its great to see i got As for my sciences. i must say, i didnt expect to get As for all practicals. well except for BM orals, a C, whut a shame.

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my A level subjects;

Chemistry
Biology
Psychology
Thinking Skills

i think im not gonna change my mind again. i drop maths cause i dont really favour it, besides, my mind isnt really adapted for calculations, its more into science logic.

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and. i just received a call. im gonna retake Amaths. and someone's paying it. there goes my year. gahd im just so tired.

Chapter M49

2010-02-04T11:02:00.002+09:00

ey ey ey.

bangun. on laptop. on pc. online. cs. makan. pray. online. cs. tidur. this is pretty much whut i do everyday. you know whut that means? IM GAINING WEIGHT. please results come out already :( i received a text from Pith this morning saying MD got UKexhibition. ahhh srs to say, im not really interested to go to UK. id rather go to SG or Aussie or NZ or Japan. anywhere asal inda jauh from home.

...im hungry. hmm...i dunno whut to write about anymore HAHAHA. thank goodness for journals.

Chapter M48

2010-01-04T15:10:00.002+09:00

one of the best.

Chapter M47

2009-12-31T11:57:00.006+09:00

SAWP.

new year! its its its tomorrow! and im not in tutong. you know how that feels right? :( im gonna type whatever things i remember about the last 364days.

2009

JANUARY:

First Day of School (05.01) - lotsa people grabbed my butt :( plus lotsa screams were heard cause they were missing each other. i.. kinda miss that, srsly :')

26.01.09 - najmi taught me my very first chinese words!! "kukujiao" and "lanjiao"

30.01.09 - WENT SINGLE HAHAHA. and still single till now.

FEBRUARY:

03.02.09 - M5A's Prefect and Cempaka House Captain. "cempaka what?! CEMPAKA WOWYEAHH!!!" i have great people in that house.

05.02.09 - was apponted DMC's editor. and memet became my friend today tru cs :P

06.02.09 - MY DAY OF TUITION @ FLYING COLOURS!! malik was hot ;)

12.02.09 - basketball w/ dibah and fathin. spoke malaysian, and had names. "anak siring lungkang (mine)" "anak siring jambatan (fathin)" "anak siring sampah (dibah)" plus i ran 1km for 6minutes, im gonna do better next year. Sir Iz saw gmah's undies i guess today HAHAHAHA. Mulah Ngah Sum masuk hospital today.

19.02.09 - cicak naik my beg. shit i know.

23.02.09 - PRESS DAY! was awesome and tiring. apa inda ngaleh me-round stadium basar atu 2 kali? hahaha was w/ Jalilah tu time atu. watched valkyrie at noon. plus bapa c Jalilah masakkan maggi.

25.02.09 - mimi balanced her bio file on her head from class till library, and gee tilted it off HAHAHA.

28.02.09 - muscle cramp (400m, 200m, long jump, discus, shot putt)

MARCH:

02.03.09 - my article masuk BT-NIE and got 5th for choir, made it to the finals :)

03.03.09 - najmi shared this joke; apa difference between a bucket of shit and a nigga? answer; the bucket. HAHAAH. c sup belainan jawapannya hahaha.

05.03.09 - detonator's 2nd anniversary.

08.03.09 - the ES's wedding, malamnya POCOPOCO.

10.03.09 - SUMMARY CHEM NOTES HORROR.

14.03.09 - Interhouse Quiz, Cempaka 2nd place, drifted w/ the Agri. Trolley HAHAHA.

15.03.09 - BC match against PR. Draw.

17.03.09 - kes $112 hilang.

20.03.09 - Rizqun for 3days 2nights w/ my SWs. went on a movie date, went swimming and won a lunch voucher diRizqun.

APRIL:

09.04.09 - Puisidrama day! AKU JADI BADBOY. and look at how many fans i had :') Cempaka no.1 haha. zombie mcm pundan usulnya inda ja jim? AHJAHA.

11.04.09 - w/ rabi. "hottie alert hottie alert" "mana?" "....." "HOLY SHIT! HAHAHA"

16.04.09 - stocked w/ my two best girls, mimi and dibah.

25.04.09 - SPORTS DAY!!! got 2nd for 800m and 200m and 3rd for 1500m. TOOK A FRICKIN BATH AT JAMBAN SURAU NEKKID MANN HAHA SHITT. shampoo sabun the works. was disgusting, and i didnt dry off fully.

MAY:

16.05.09 - TP teachers habis contract. HOT C BEN TU KAN KAN? HAHAHA. the noon went to muara beach, ada bbq party w/ the TPs. mimi cooked me some indomee and ate it @ the hospital w/ Q and Nit. and sentence on that day was "jadinya kan kau tipex taie lalat ku?" HAHAHAHA LOL WTF.

20.05.09 - Ngah Sum passed away. Al-Fatihah.

JUNE:

07.06.09 - i left my BIO file at school and went for a match.

08.06.09 - and fuck I HAD MY BIO JUNE O LEVEL.

09.06.09 - the day i laid my eyes on Abg LeeTeuk :) anyway, activated FB back that day. and i had 3 spam victims. got subbed for debate, it broke me apart. the day we lost against SGS, went to SGS and hung out w/ Bryan hahaha.

JULY:

04.07.09 - bunnies for life.

14.07.09 - MY FANS THOUGHT I WAS A BI. c dibah jua tu girlnya HAHAHA.

15.07.09 - dibah ke Paris :)

21.07.09 - Dk Siti Nuramal Shahana Nazirah Filzah Amamah Pg DOJOB. HAHAHA.

24.07.09 - gmah's fave song; "see the guy, i dont like him cause he is a poklan and he's labih, i think his name is Roslan" HAHAHAHAHAHA.

AUGUST:

01.08.09 - dibah's day and mimi rapes studs kan mencari telephone card HAHAHA. PICNIC DAY!! :))

09.08.09 - satu hari yg buduh. jalan kaki ke kadai kaling w/ bella dibah and fathin. ANGIN KANCANG, TRAK PALUI LAJU + DREBAR NYA ANTAH INDON BRIJAP.

11.08.09 - the Clique :P and im Massie HAHA.

13.08.09 - flirted w/ the office boy w/ fathin qeelz amyy hanis mizah tina HAHAHAH. kana marahi eh.

16.08.09 - Gz waved at me HOLY G EXTASY :) hothothot

19.08.09 - and one hella shitty day which changed my life from great to worst. almost lost my badge and dignity. thank god for my supportive friends, dibah, mimi, fathin, gmah, bella, dd and meow, i love you guys always. then the ptg went to berakas forest reserve, party! life was miserable after that face-to-face w/ the disp faculties.

20.08.09 - INTENSIVE MONOPOLY W/ MY COUSINS (DADSSIDE)

24.08.09 - june results are out (BM-C . ENG-B . MATH-B . BIO-C) A "C" FOR BIO LOLOLOLOL.

29.08.09 - hotel 626 horror lapas terawih @ Abg Iyan's HAHA. w/ them madewa nephews, gotta love 'em :)

SEPTEMBER:

19.09.09 - 2 months allowance HILANG because of that baju kurung yg aku langsung inda beliur kan mmbli tapi my mom suruh.

21.09.09 - spent the night before raya playing cs w/ afi, fex, and this perv dude HAHAHA.

22.09.09 - tilam gugur arah c safwanah HAHAHAHAHAHA + amira got straight hair!! damn hell of a sun got PRETTY BOY @ nini amit's. gahd gahd gahd. still hot till now :)

24.09.09 - went to ika's house and abg apis's.

27.09.09 - went to usu's friend's houses di lumapas and lambak, amira's friend di kiarong, nini amit's (met pehin jack, talked about my teeth), uda bujang's (went karaoke, mun 4 org gnya kau ah), mall (bought a croc and talked to rasyid tru the phone for the first time HAHAHA), and lastly to uncle aus's.

OCTOBER:

03.10.09 - sembahyang hajat @ school. jadi datin salam salam org (kira sambung line the teachers la~ HAHA). the night went to abg arin's and ngah jem's.

05.10.09 - drew starry-starry night arah my chem file, showed it to mimi who was standing up psl punishment sampai o lvl. i said, "ni mi, cool ah?" she replied, "apakan buDUHH?" man it cracks me up.

07.10.09 - mimi bbbb exposure, dibah saw it and baik jua fathin sama aku liat tmpat lain HAHAHAHAHAHA. c zaki hot. and this was the night fathin and dibah stared at newyorkgirl's bbbbs HAHAHAHA. i have a kassegat names supershinju @ petpetpark.

09.10.09 - my girl's photo manang $8k masuk newspaper.

10.10.09 - only 10 5As attended school, did bio practical on ovaries ovums blabla, got $10 for scoring highest in chem quiz. just by 0.5 pts :P apa yg palui was i got only a PARTICIPATION for the aussie chem shit. yatah tuuu tidur lagii. and atm Mao's w that Ebasterd. the night went to Mr Osman's place, watched click for the first time, gila NANGIS KALI KU AH. deep critanya ah, tarus ku tidur.

12.10.09 - hung out @ the computer lab. balik ke rumah mimi ambil stock, then khayal gugur katil HAHAHAHAHA. na'il tapuk kasut c dibah dalam this cat cage. the noon time bio, mimi made a HUGE stain on my bio paper pakai iodine HAHAHA. gmah wrote on my journal - "she's a BITCH!! >:8) teehee."

14.10.09 - went srsly deep this day, about sumth. the noon went to cottage grill, checked tectonick dance arah pc abg marul HAHAHAHA. i had a petpet slorg.

17.10.09 - played cs w/ eccentric for the first time, good guy. the noon went to abg awg's tunang's place, then to pawang's where i saw ifwat w his headband. watched history channel...life after people... and their remote control is srsly broken. heres sumth;

dad: bari, why wont you eat?
bari: im on a diet
dad: oh kalau diet cannot drink fizzy drink
bari: does tht mean i cant drink beer like my dad? :(
dad: LOLed
thaqif: anu uncle...root beer...

18.10.09 - the morning went to ka linda's, the noon went to bu peneh's. balik ke rumah babu ikut niniji. DAMN ONCE IN A LIFETIME JOURNEY. jendela sudah biut. laju lagi arah tampat lupak. antah. "BISmillah" *VRRRRRRRRRRRRROOOOOOOOOM*

19.10.09 - wasnt happy w/ the school magazine, this was the day i wanted to leave sch so much. c zaki hot HAHAHA.

21.10.09 - dibah and i smuggled doraemon books naik HAHA.

22.10.09 - 8846040; lucky person srsly. whut happend - *105*8846040*2# "shit..shitt NO NO NO!!!" tesend tia~ its for mimi bahh sbnrnya.

31.10.09 - went to the library w/ jalilah, fathin, asrul, met, yat.

NOVEMBER:

05.11.09 - mimi and dibah staie time quarantine HAHAHAHAHAHA.

10.11.09 - DEEEEEEEEEEP pasal inda dapat ke pantai liat sunset. the morning chem1&2, 11am kerumah c mimi, lunch dikopitiam, just the 2 of us :)

13.11.09 - OOOOOOO HABIS O LEVEL!

24.11.09 - "you miss me? i miss you too baby"

27.11.09 - went jalan w/ jalilah, fate, asrul, batrisyia, farouq, met and nish. saw a lot of people that day.

DECEMBER:

09.12.09 - babu beadmit ke hospital cause of fibroid. nish and mir ikut ngah makan dinner luar w/ niniji. di KJ, niniji salam EVERY waiter then masuk dapur. wth? srsly.

13.12.09 - i went to 2 different weddings di keriam, satu didewan, satu lagi arah typical tutong house. DAMN ATAS BUKIT RUMAHNYA. kami parking bawah, apa lagi, walkathon lah. imagine pakai HIGH WEDGES. teplicuk antah bnyk kali.

14.12.09 - c mira deep psl ya di hospital sorang. baik jua ada LA. HAHAHAHAHA. *speaks fast then snorts* I FINALLY UNDERSTAND HIS JOKES!!

18.12.09 - safwanah ckp org cina yg tukar duit di boulevard miri is a stupid bitch HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH.

19.12.09 - GOT AN MX518 FOR RM119.

25.12.09 - had lunch @ tasek braserie(sp?) di sheraton. i didnt know kan kesana so i used a simple merry christmas shirt, jeans and my ipanema. nya usu baik jua usul ku mcm cina HAHAHAAH. that day, credit ku habis. EPIC.

27.12.09 - OK FF HOT. ehehehehejbrhjebrherheeh.

28.12.09 - DEAGLE KU GAGAR.

then the next few december days, journal ku tinggal tutong. cheers ;)

Chapter M46

2009-12-09T04:43:00.003+09:00

mosquitoes here wont give it a rest man. wheres fckin ridsect when you need 'em -.-

its 3.45am. the 9th of december. here i am laying down on the floor while blogging. i sure am having backache real soon. OOP its coming now.

over there, youre so sweet. cant you be sweet right over here too? tough life. too bad time's changing you. time is really taking quite a long time to do so too. your presence, your smart mind, your scoldings, no shit, why the hell am i obsessed w/ you man?

gotta lay off these techs for a while

Chapter M45

2009-12-02T15:50:00.007+09:00

saaapp.

i decided to change my web-address from dazzlingkei19.bs to dazzlingkei-nineteen.bs. nothing big. sigh, im going to complain about my holidays. its so boring im about to fckin explode :( my cousins are in KL until the 5th. so its just me and this good ol' PC w/ CS. i... wanna go sight-seeing, away from Gadong, cause Gadong's kinda jammed this month. and shit, i dreamed/dreamt that i got a fckin "D" for chem.

hehe Leeteuk, felt like posting it up here.

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oh hey, ada org spam blog c zeh! HAHA batah kan aku atu. heh, im curious. i kinda miss spamming people's blog. being anonymous and then start saying stuff. its bad, i know, thats why i stopped spamming for a while :)

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IM SO BOREDDDDDDDDDD. ANDJKASNADSJANSDJKASNDJKASNS. Dibah, im waiting for your call. NAZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ! SLEEPOVER D: damnson, i heard dvd player di tutong pun rusak, SNORECITY! tv saja basar sana atu :( semua drama siuk pun nada on dvd c rabi ani. ditabak nya semua arah laptop nya :(

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRITNEY!

Chapter M44

2009-11-26T12:35:00.002+09:00

AIGHTTT! new update for the 5A Amaths-ian;

I cancelled the bookings i made for Swensen's cause Mrs Yenny couldnt make it (reason - nada org jaga anak tcher) and this occasion will be postponed to next year, after the results are out.

NEW TERMS! - whosoever yg inda dapat 60% above time Qualifyings, but GOT A CREDIT (ABC) time O Level november, Mrs Yenny lanja makan free aighttt. soo its like this, yg 60% above + credits time O lvl = kana lanja tcher.

any kes "tak paham" text me tru the phone (you know the number, paling sanang tu hahaha) or tru my hotmail (kuroi-psycho10@hotmail.com)

xx

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NOW ITS MY CASE LAGI.

big possibility im spending the 27th, 28th, and the 29th ditutong. 27th maybe ada tahlil, and the 28th ada HRAA. fasnjaskfnasdjkfnejhaufdkfmlas. sorry if i couldnt make it guys. family functions are not avoid-able. maybe God is telling me something but i couldnt figure it out yet.

Chapter M43

2009-11-23T21:43:00.002+09:00

hello thar.

im terribly sorry for not coming on both friday's and sunday's match. couldnt come on friday cause i had no transport, and couldnt come on sunday cause my manager won't let me. was already in gdg last sunday, was almost close to go there, then last minute, she said no. sorry to Dindin for wasting yer... 15cents credit? yeeeah 15cents. and all the other line-ups. kurang sorang since i couldnt come.

yes yes i do have the comitment(sp?) to play. being a daughter of a strict family is tough. im not always free to go somewhere.

sorry k k k k k k k

Chapter M42

2009-11-12T14:14:00.003+09:00

hello hi its been a month havent logged on this site. tmrs last exam, a.maths, im gonna bring you DOWN AIGHT. im gonna... update more if im... not busy. well, im lazy. plus theres not much to update cause ive written everyshiz down in my journal aha aha aha. im doing some past year amaths paper at the moment. i cant read anymore formulas cause my brain is formula-logged already so yeah. enjoy your holidays. xx.

Chapter M41

2009-10-11T16:55:00.003+09:00

just visited batsu a while ago, gila my Kyo avatar, my CaH siggy's missing. batsu's going down.
anyway, watched Click for the first time last night, HAHA i frickin cried.

o lvls are..... in 10 days. cant wait to get over it.

Chapter M40

2009-09-24T00:13:00.003+09:00

my two favourite-brown-haired sisters

and the nightmare

- c najmi main badil dari bunut kedngrn di jerudong ah HAHAHAHA.

Chapter M39

2009-09-17T14:24:00.005+09:00

MORE PHOTOS TAKEN W/ MY MOTOROLA

15/09/09 - 17/09/09

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15/09/09

sungkai @ nini amit's workshop dilambak.

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16/09/09

amaths tuition @ FC

fathinz

qeelz

malz

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17/09/09

tribute to teh journalzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzxx which accompanies my life throughout shits. lotsa thanks to Georgia Nicolson for the journal idea.

larak usulnya yg 1st and 2nd atu HAHA.

1st edition - 25/05/08

2nd edition - 05/11/08

3rd edition (latest) - to be launched on the 19/09/09 :)

Chapter M38

2009-09-17T09:58:00.003+09:00

did this early in the morning last tuezzday.

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what i miss in keriam;

the junkfood refrigerator
the "nothotwater" shower
dvds + blanket
sleeping in the living room
carrying the laptop here and there
c edna HAHAHAHAHA
the "everydaymenu" ikan rebus. fave mu tu sap HAHAHAHA
ksap and kmir

mom said big possibility we're going there again this friday. mengbungkus kelupis. blajar tah ni EYAA.

anyway after tuition yesterday, went to ahan thai to break the fast with my cousins. mira did a heroic thing before we parked. HAHAHAHA. brimalu eh, baik jua bukan parking space tu HAHA. i saw c izzy and syam sana. the food was okay. wasnt the best i tasted. after ahan thai, went to molx cause usu wants to get some household stuff. so usu went alone, and drg pergi sama mehz. i prayed forawhile, and after the prayers, went to winmark and bought some sour scooxes. i saw jikzter!

then went to the bookshop cause usu's waiting there. then pergi ke chill untuk makanmakan. drg cakap everything there was sweet. i had mac and cheezzzzzxxc and disana i saw MIMI. seriously, she was outside in the dark. imagine ya betudung hitam allblack and trustrus smiling from outside. apa inda brijap tu? she went in and sat forawhile and chatted. then she had to go, took a sip of my mango slushiewhatever drink and hugged me. i missed her okayz.

after chill, we went to utama grand to do some grocery shopping. i bought a notebook for my third journal gaizz. gonna upload the photo soon. bingbong everything totalled up to $280 HAHAHA. too much junk food :P plus lotsa chicken. then masuk kekrita, and went home. and dad wasnt home from kb yet by that time. *uhh somewhere around....11pm?

qahhar birthday on the 19th YOOYAWHAW

Chapter M37

2009-09-15T11:23:00.002+09:00

teehee. its vk19.

Chapter M36

2009-09-09T20:22:00.002+09:00

betapa malang nasib ku inda kana bawa ke sana, kana lupakan tia kali niiiii ahax -.-

mom; bah singgah arah babu. sana adek mandi. tunggu saja, barangkali ada abg tu ambil adek bawa kesana.

7.26pm, sitting here, bejubah, betudung, and waiting for someone to take me to Ka Jat's house. mann im going to miss terawih and jemaahs there -.-

Chapter M35

2009-09-07T12:29:00.004+09:00

Photos Taken by my Motorola Phone t/o the busy weekend :

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040909

sungkai @ capers. tu c alep blakang nampak kamu? HAHAHA. service nya SLOW BRABIS. tpi the food was okay. I LOVE PENNES HEHE. went to the mall after that and balik pkul 11. EYAAA apa inda samsing tu esuk harinya skulah? HAHA.

+ c nis khayal, mmbri malu.

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050909

malam tedarus/sungkai @ my house.

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060909

malam tedarus/sungkai @ Hanis's place. twister frenzy ni HAHAHA. nis made my soto real black. amai bah tngn nya atu. masin bnr. had funnnnnnnnn. too bad i couldnt stretch my arms/legs long enough -.- next week @ Cik Rosini's place. HEHEHE CANT WAIT.

back to chemistry -.-

Chapter M34

2009-09-04T17:29:00.003+09:00

MAD MAD SCIENTIST

AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

me and saf :P

i miss them shizzzzzzzzzzzz, KRG WE MEET! AHAX.

Chapter M33

2009-09-03T22:49:00.006+09:00

LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL

jgn inda galat mua c nis ah (second from left)

i like these shit. tpi ada gambar yg lagi cali tinggal arah pc c saf -.-

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anywayzzzxxcc, my breakdowns -

BM - 6 6 1

Eng - 4 3 1

Bio - 6 7 3 (paper 2 hancur HAHA, yatah tuu inda blajar)

Math - 3 4

aku still inda pecaya my orals dua dua 1. esp bm.

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KARANG CAPERS AHAX.

anyway, sent Uncle Rick Foster and his wife tdi balik ke NZ. he's a good friend of dad's time my dad kerja di NZ dulu in 2002. havent seen him for quite a while. 7 years to be exact. time umur ku... 8 kali. yeah 8. di nz dulu. memory nya sama kami... ya visit our house di nz and tried our mushroom soup and liked it. and nis punya hair pernah terstuck arah butang coat nya time ya salam and hugged him, and uncle Rick inda sadar HAHAHAHA.

*Uncle Rick walks*

nis; "umm, excuse me sir, excuse me, my hair..~"

and whats embarassing is that he remembers that occasion. yesterday time we met him di orchid garden, ya salam and asked me and nis, "which one of you girls got her hair stuck on my coat?" HAHAHAHA. great guy.

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@ Airport Friday 040909, 9am.

him; "soo, whatre your name girls? im getting old and i must remember, haha"

nis; "nisyyah"

him; "ooo nisyyah right? yes, and you?"

me; "nazirah"

him; "la zira?"

me; "um yeah, thats it."

reasons why i dont wanna correct him;

i dont wanna repeat my name.
i dont want him to go "what? / again? / ah?"
"La Zira" is a nice name.

gotta go mandiiieeeeyyyyzzzzzzzxxxc.

Chapter M32

2009-09-02T23:42:00.002+09:00

my kitten died today kana buli ulih 5 very-stupid dogs. bloody hell man. sedih ku the morning ah time my dad told me ._.

malay orals yesterday SUCKED. matay. satay. i got psl television and internet. srsly, those 2 were easy. tpi the problem was i dont know how to EXPRESS it in malay. hancur -.-

had this tagalog frenzy at school tdi HAHAHA. anniyong dedemoo~ bah bella, tambah lagi HAHAHA. and uhh, tuition was 50-50. dibah tuition diFC sudah HAHAHA.

dibah; "mallllllllll, im super-duper lateeee. bleh naik kahh?"
me; "aku kan tunggu c fathin. pkul brapa kan ni dang?"
dibah; "2.33" *class actually starts at 2.30*
me; "DANGGGG, AWAL MASIH NII"

samsing bnr HAHAHAHAH. plus fathin had this "my hero" moment. HAHA. babi, hero ku nada HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

Chapter M31

2009-08-30T22:03:00.005+09:00

SFAQs : Amal Nazirah Mulok

1. Why do you go to SMPAPHM?
- cause my mom works at PGGMB madang. if mom wasnt a teaher, id be a rebel already at SMSH. plus my sister used to go there.

2. Why'd you quit learning the piano?
- IM NOT INTERESTED IN MAKING MUSIC. well maybe a teeny-bit, i wanna learn playing the drums. i used to be obsessed with violins sampai my aunt ku pajal suruh blikan HAHAHAHA.

3. What kind of sports do you play?
- ball games? neah sounds wrong HAHA. umm... netball, bball, vball, hball, running, badminton and frisbee. mom wants me to learn tennis. and qahhar wants me to learn golf. i used to take golf lessons from qahhar dulu but then i dont know why i quit. i learn kendo too, but then, mcm no feel lagi because of.. reasons. i dont swim btw.

4. Have you got over your ex?
- yes yes yes yes. i have a better life now and i think he has too.

5. What happened to your obsession with Jrock?
- got over it, ITS ENGLISH TIME!

6. When'd you start playing CS?
- mid 2007s. started playing it ferreal after my PMBs. hahaha, i used to be paranoid of cs psl its a "killing-shooting-bloody" game. my first map was dust2 and first server was this HK server. hahaha 32slots ah, ramai.

7. What's your fave subject?
- atm, its chemistry. PE's a forever fave. i never liked math/physics. amaths is okay. subject lain, neutral.

8. Any job in the world, what would it be?
- psychologist. and a gangster. HAHAHA, srsly, if that wasnt a sin aku mau.

9. Do you like celery?
- with sandwiches.... chicken... and never raw. my cousin eats it raw. inda pahit kah tu!?

10. How long does it take for you to shave your legs?
- uhh... 10mins? or maybe shorter. srsly inda jua lama kali ah mencukur bulu kaki ani.

11. Had a crush on any of your teachers?
- yes, we call him Ben. HAHAHA. gila aku obsessive bnr wah dulu. he's cute. and i told my friend im gonna date him HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH. and used to crush on sir Z. now he's a close teacher of mine. EHH sir Ab lagi. hot. HAHAHAHA. heckk.

12. Do you use cheats in games?
- Sims only. HAHAHAHAAH. "klapaucius/rosebud" damn rindu ku game atu.

13. Do you forgive and forget?
- umm it depends on the situations really. tapi i forgive. srsly. forget.... neaaaaahhhh.

14. Favourite object given by exes?
- my razer piranha.

15. Do you start a conversation or you let someone starts it?
- let the person talk. i dont like starting conversations. well sometimes. i like guys who starts a conversation and... not quiet. not quiet i mean they TALK and nada awkward silences.

16. You used to be a boy right?
- AHAHAHAHAHAHAH BLOODY HELL LAH THIS QUESTION. look, i may have a lot of Y chromosomes in me -.- i like boxers. i like jumping and i wanna free-run. and mom likes me in short hairs. i have Gatsby waxes in my room, yessss i use that with my previous hairrrrrrr. now my hair panjang dahh. and maybe aku close bnr with qahhar thats why aku cemani hahaha.

17. How many children would you like to have?
none. and if i had to, one, a boy.

18. How many exes you had?
uhhh.... 4 ex-bf. and... 4 flings i guess. average semua around a month or two. i get bored easily. srsly, no spark. make an effort -.- same thing fer crushes, skjp suka skjp move on HAHAHAH. tpi once aku suka, suka brabis. srsly.

19. Who are you crushing on atm?
this MS dude. for.... 6months already? dulu it was a minor crush cause i was flinging. ani major crush sudah hahahaha. ahh, hes got a gf. so id better keep it shut cause i dont feel like being bitched atm.

end of P1.

Chapter M30

2009-08-30T20:22:00.003+09:00

dad's still in his room mengusai sinjang kali... i might continue doing this lator.

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ITS LATER ALREADY~

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Chapter M29

2009-08-28T23:43:00.004+09:00

ahhhh DE 101.

plus last few rounds ya afk, so i enjoyed myself.

ps/: FPS IMAGE ATAS 61?! THIS CS GOT ISSUES.

Chapter M28

2009-08-27T23:01:00.002+09:00

went to the airport yesterday after tuition. hantar them baaqi, nana and their mom balik ke UK. and i didnt know most scholars were off yesterday. sooooo, i saw A LOT OF PEOPLE I KNOWHOWJOW. saw my seniors; wiyah, faw, nyra, yatii, syahirah, qilly and naddie. lotsa luck naddie, 5 years a long time, haha love yah. we hugged and screamed. gang ku balik skulah tu bisdurang ah kau ah. saw fhise and his family, his younger sister belayar... saw faizan hantar kawannya... saw ika's brother and I SAW WAFIL WAFEE.

me; you know, i wanna hug you right now but my mom's here.
fil; yeah, i wanna hug you too but my gf's here.

then we started eyaaa eyaaa-ing and punched each other mcm apakan. HAHAHAHA. awkward~

aku sungkai coffee sja yest di airport ah HAHAHA. dad mau sungkai di CAM yayasan. inda jauh kah tu?! well whatever, sampai jua hajat nya makan disana. AT FRIGGIN 9PM. bukannya inda kan pengsan inda makan dri pkul 11pm tuesday sampai 9pm wednesday.

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soo today, i sniffed sulphuric acid + this liquid L. khayal ku nyamu HAHAHA. and liquid L seriously smells like ACID. gahd, i havent got over this shit yet okay.

the whole morning - energy : zero.

dibah pandai buat bunyi turtle, penguin and kucing having their thing going on if we cubit her HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. bloody hell. love you dibah. *swipes finger* my ass~~~

and mimi has this SHD going on dri tadi. lets sing; your ____ is longer than a coastline. your ____ is two french fries. your ____ is infected with HIV. HAHAHAHAHA.

and ika has a small crush on me. and i think its growing in her. and fathin, happy 9monthsary boob.

Chapter M27

2009-08-25T23:44:00.002+09:00

I CAN'T SEAFOODBLOODYHELL WAIT FOR FCKING TMR AFTERNOON 8D

COUNTDOWN : 16HOURS HECKYEAH.

GzGz

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GzGzGzGzGzGzGz

GzGzGzGzGzGz

GzGzGzGzGz

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♥

Chapter M26

2009-08-25T22:21:00.004+09:00

had my english orals today. mmyes, it was great. the invigilator's a friend of my sister, they once went overseas together. HAHA awkward~ talked about places ive been to ; NZ. HAHAHA, i talked about the time where an ostrich chased me and aku nangis time atu. hell, they laughed, haha suka ku tu~ HAHAHAH.

TRUE STORY TU AH OSTRICH AH. trauma. eya and the dude asked me where i wanna go. i told him i wanna go to JP. and mecca. HAHAHAHA. drg mcm "ooo okay, why?" and i answered "i wanna do my hajj" atu ktawa drg HAHAHA.

inda terasa wah the orals. i wanted to talk longer hahaha. cubatah oral malay cematu inda terasa. eh wait, can i just drop malay time o lvl november? i mean, dude, i got a credit fer it already. HAAHHAHA.

"damn, we missed it again beh"

HAHAHAHA DONT GET ME WRONG,
this was like a few weeks ago? HAHAHAHA.

Chapter M25

2009-08-24T23:00:00.002+09:00

tagged by iman on fb. guess this is about guys i uhh..fancy? hahaha.

1. Do you need him/her to be good looking?
• good-looking to me :8)

2. Smart?
• yes.

3. Preferred age?
• atm, 17 - 19.

4. Preferred height?
• taller than i am.

5. How about sense of humor?
• sure. YES.

6. How about piercings?
• neah.

7. Accepts you for who you are?
• mmyes.

8. Pink hair?
• uh no.

9. Mushy or no?
• a bit mushy's fine.

10. Thin or fat?
• thin, average.

11. Black, Brown or White (skin color)?
• brown. no kit-kats. NOT BEING RACIST 'ERE.

12. Long hair or short hair?
• short.

13. Plastic or metal?
• what? spoons?

14. Smells good?
• mmyes.

15. Smoker?
• sure.

16. Drinker?
• NEAH.

17. Girl/Boy-next-door type?
• UM NOO. no neighbas pl0x.

18. Muscular?
• not that WWE whatever type pl0x. that, is over.

19. Plays piano?
• umm... sure.

20. Plays bass and/or acoustic guitar?
• manasaja tah.

21. Plays violin
• neah.

22. Sings very good?
• KBOX ROXSTAR. *lol iman got nice answer fer this :P

23. Vain?
• uhh... sure?

24. With glasses?
• sipit? (Y) HAHAHA.

25. With braces?
• neah.

26. Shy type?
• neah.

27. Rebel or good boy/girl?
• GOOD BOY AHAX.

28. Active or passive?
• more active, less passive.

29. Tight or bomb?
• apa ni? clothing style? BOMB PL0X.

30. Singer or dancer?
• SING SING. KBOXXAR.

31. Stunner?
• stoner. stunner boleh juga (y)

32. Hiphop?
• neah.

33. Earrings?
• neah.

34. Mr/Ms. count-my-ex-girlfriends-until-you-drop?
• ugh.

35. Dimples?
• neah. eh, ntah.

36. Bookworm?
• suree.

37. Mr/Ms. love letter?
• neah.

38. Playful?
• sure.

39. Flirt?
• NEAH.

40. Poem writer?
• neah.

41. Serious?
• not over~~~~~!!!~!@!@!~@~!@!~@#~#!@

42. Campus crush?
• i dont get this shit.

43. Painter?
• neah.

44. Religious?
• sure.

45. Someone who likes to tease people?
• sure.

46. Computer games geek? Or internet freak?
• uhh... for once, internet freak? AHAHAHAHAHAHA. bloody hell.

47. Speaks 20 languages?
• uhh... sure?

48. Loyal or faithful?
• sama jua tu inda kan? hahahaha.

49. good kisser?
• MYEAH. AHAHAH.

50. loves children??
• ... no comment.

Chapter M24

2009-08-24T20:21:00.003+09:00

ARGHHH BLOODY HELLL

im having difficulties playing cs since this stupid table had issues with its keyboard holder/whatever. my wrist pun mcm ada lineslineslines. mcm org emo plng usulnya ni -.-

plus the table looks disorganized. filthy -.-

...

just got home from mesjed. i cant breathe D: the lungsss feel so tight. i wonder whats wrong.

Chapter M23

2009-08-24T20:11:00.002+09:00

here we go again... blog's up. as requested by sup. JAHAHA.

OLVLJUNE09 -

ENG - B
BM - C
MATH - B
BIO - C

TOTAL CREDS - 4 OUT OF 4.

Chapter M22

2009-08-17T22:12:00.005+09:00

birthday c manis "x" ah :P

have a blast, love yahz.

xoxo

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GDragon is hot

but my Shin is hotter.

ku pajak kah, dripada ku gasah.

in ; hashidani shin + gDragon

out ; kirai mu ah.

Chapter M21

2009-08-15T23:00:00.004+09:00

s2pid + s2bb0rn

IM GOING STRAIGHT TO THE POINT HERE GIRRRRRRRRRRRRLL~

majal wah kamu atu, now look, 3 of the seniors are unemployed/unimportant. i thought i put stress jua psl atu. kau ani kan mmbawa the WHOLE crew knapa? 9 isnt enough? i think 9 is even bnyk for that little project.

juniors kau bawa ah. napa inda bawa yg form 5-ers jua? drg DMC jua masih. i thought everytime aku datang meliat CCA atu, ADA jua durang duduk-duduk, waiting for TASKS to be given. yg kau ucap drg bangang knapa? nampak wah kau MEMILIH KASIH ah. whats wrong w/ talking to them? helping them? and i thought you call yourself a leader. dont deny it. LOL AND YOURE LIKE REPEATING WHAT IM SAYING~ lmao~

LOLLLLLLL BTWWWWWWW! if inda pressure drg wah dang, nada drg buat kraja tu. srsly, WE had the experience. anu article ah, inda jua kitani kana pressure kau ah, now you see, how many article sja arah site ah? guess you werent thinking outside the box. plusplus, plan B anu live ah, awal awal KAU JUA APPROVE LOL. skali time meet, you "totally reject the idea" dont deny this. if you are, youre being s2pid. i heard what you said.

nampak ku kaliahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh kamu rolled-eyes to each other. HAHAHA apa tah tu? sasak kamu kah aku gnya becakap? besides, the slideshow was my idea, teehee, im not bragging. bida wah bida. ucap ucap psl bossy lah ini lah, isnt that the fact? psl aku bossy? LOLL, thought you guys knew the real me. mmyeah, bossy + betchjy :P

report? LOL. and then try to brainwash them? saying whatever i said here is offending YOU much? think of the F5 juniors YOU LEFT OUT. dont they feel offended you said drg bangang? you said drg JARANG DATANG padahal DRG ADA? kesian jua tu kau ahh. staie. if you call this TEAMWORK, then you definition's WRONG~

epic failures. you guys never USE your brains to think. lol, hope this post will help you gaizz to think. if it doesnt, GET TEH REHAB. btw, im not talking to you unless it concerns work.

Chapter M20

2009-08-14T21:30:00.005+09:00

have i posted this before? lupa ku LOL.

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stupid FALSE ALARM. i almost fell from the damn stairs tadi. there's this new kitten outside, tail nya ntah zigzag shape nya HAHA. and has dots on his bodeh. Baaqi called him Pedro.

finally, my desk's not organized. file chem, file mathD, file bio, DAMNSHIT i cant think straight. ahaxx im hungry. havent ate since 12pm today. and its 830pm now. neah, i shouldnt complain.

BAWHHHHHHHHHHHHH its this hatred feeling coming tru again~~~~ drama eh. bloody satan -.- i hate everyone atm. well not really everyone, some certain bloody asses on the net which ruined my damn day. bloody hell yeah? i have issues. LOL. gee, i love you. HAHAHA. spank you tmr.

uhmm.. what to bring tmr...

2 champagne glass
chem file
bio file
journal
dumb diary 2 3 4
shit, i forgot geo file.
PENS AND PAPER FER THE DAMN MEET.

teeheeeeeeeeee, i see anger on your page~ i know you love me betcjh~ xoxo.

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in; ci. pl0x?
out; issues.

Chapter M19

2009-08-14T17:05:00.002+09:00

seeeeeeeee hoooooow tiiiiiiiiiiiiiiimeeeeeeeee chaaaaaaaaangeeeeeeeees theeeeeeeeseeeeeeeeee daaaaaaaaaaaamn hypoooooooocriiiiiiiiiiiiiiiteeeeeeeeeeeees?

theeeeeeeeeeeey liiiiiiiiiiiikeeeeeeeeeeee, loooooooooveeeeeeeeeeee eeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaach ooooooooooootheeeeeeeeer nooooooooooow.

LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL. suuuuuuuuckeeeeeeeeeeeeeers. i tooooooooooold yoooooooouuuuuuuuuu thaaaaaaaaaaat iiiiiiiiiiiiit woooooooouuuuuuuld haaaaaaaaaaappeeeeeeeeen.

yooooooouuuuuuuu knoooooooooooow whooooooooooooo yoooooooooouuuuuuuuuu aaaaaaaaareeeeee.

Chapter M19

2009-08-13T21:54:00.003+09:00

my lookalikes HAHAHA.

*downstairs atm. searching for food. im frickin hungry.

Chapter M18

2009-08-13T19:33:00.005+09:00

amal * back to back. grrr. hahahah kakai kakai. sleepless.

fate * pulling him with your hair. HAHA. atu ganas.
dibs * najib come back here. GRRRR. hahaha ehh, terbalik? pusing him again. hahaha

miims * white cream and cherry. hahahaha oxygen / gas? HUH?

bella * breakfast in bed? hot bread or white cream with cherry? i'll take white cream and cherry. HAHAHAHA

shit bella, siapa hah siapa? popcorn? HAHAHAHAH. - i need a DATE fer wedsday. eh eh, set me up on a blind date. plus, remember im picky, so pick hot ones, smart dresser, funny, and a slightly bit older than me and not an infadel. likeeeeeee, cmon man, im tryna get rid of those shitty memories. btw, if you guys found him, tell him its only a date, im in no mood for relationships atm.

so far qualifying results, 3 subs kana bgi sudah, sooo, 3Os. ABC. HAHA heck. plus nov o lvl chem1 &chem2 are on 1011. im so happy. and i am not being sarcastic. its chemistry. im into the Clique now. likeee ehhmagawdddd, i sound like one. damn, start spreadin the gossip around.

in: Gz.

out: *swipes finger to mimi's nose* then say "my asss~" HAHAHAHAHAHA.

i like thizz.

Chapter M17

2009-08-09T22:25:00.002+09:00

this agitated feeling within.

Chapter M16

2009-08-08T19:03:00.006+09:00

HAHAHA apakan, my post title bah eh.

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hahahaha, had a BLAZT. happy birthday bella, i know you love me. ada scary situations lagi.. bloody hell. its a good thing my dad liat krita melintas instead of us tadi HAHA. and and the stupid truck and the isi. heck, trauma kamu? cause i am, hahaha. the pix0r above's from mimi's blog. xxoo.

(8) berlarilari ku mencari mu~

Chapter M15

2009-08-06T18:56:00.005+09:00

usavich. usagi. bunnies.

you mf dojob made the past to haunt me 8) im losing my pride and confidence. lol bloody hell, why keep the feeling? stupid hahahaha. you couldve just told him earlier that i dont look like im commited in that shit~ so what if youre great? why can't i try? you think that task is too big for me to handle? i guess youre looking down at me.

so now, i hate you all _l_

ahahahahaa, i may sound like a betcjh but your post is way betcjhier. mcm ~~kau~~ kamu.

Chapter M14

2009-08-05T18:26:00.003+09:00

1pm onwards, its been a bloody-hell-shitty-rough day. trg-trg puasa indakan dipasang kali the stupid earpiece? aaaahhhhhh bloody hell. dont jump to fcking conclusions, menyakitkan hati wah. because of that, i feel like shooting myself.

breaktime, hung out with fathin, mimi, dibah and bella. dicomputer lab. hahaha, gossipped around, liat liat gmbr and did this sinful thing which i find it funny.

aku inda mau tuition krg. i wanna go to Miss Dayang's house and relax there. tmr's Amaths and Phys 2. shit. tuition lagi mathD. skdlandjkasndasjkdnadjkansdjas. bloody hell.

i can't believe you're hanging out with her. you know i dont like her and still you jalan-jalan sama ia. hahaha, i think its because we are not-so-rapat anymore and maybe she's taking advantage to take you away from me? gahd, if she thinks it that way, im going to confront her and pull her fcking brain out and shred it with a mfcking blender. mfcker.

what goes around, comes around. i think its coming back to me. hahahahaha, fck.

another wonderful stuff.

Chapter M13

2009-08-04T21:25:00.003+09:00

hahahahahaha. i love you guys.

ps: AHAHAHAH krita ku melintas slow ah. bachinomoleeayyy

Chapter M12

2009-08-03T22:02:00.000+09:00

SEDAP MATA MEMANDANG (Y)

LOL i can see the colour RED now.

Chapter M11

2009-08-02T23:05:00.002+09:00

shit, im sneezing again. gnya naw with watery eyes. shit, i just realised that tmr's QE. and, i havent studied a thing. ahh well, i guess i wont be sleeping tonight. Geography's just logic. i hope, well, it is. whatever.

ADAAAAAAAHHHH SAKITTTTTTTT IDUNG KU YAWWWWW.

slept with Choo fer like 10mins tdi. dad freaked out when he found out yg c Choo masuk. hhahahahahaha. i dont know what other shits to type in here. im so lazy to think. i miss my clan. yes, i miss them. bachiinooo-oh shuttup mal, youre too tired to get hyped up, shit.

i hope mom's not gonna take both nish and i out to the mall again tmr. btw, i thank God tmr's QE. meaning 3 periods of english, kaboof. yes, im very happy. for now. shit.

.....

i cant study in this state mahnnn. my eyes are so watery that i feel like swimming. logic. logic. SHADAPP. guess qahhar's home with hafiz. eh no, its the neighours lol. ahahaha c daniel. apakan. hai nelllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll.

shit eh, balik tah bah eh. 13 mins till 1030. there, qahhar's home. ya batuk batuk diluar kedngrn hahahahaa. i feel so sad.

Chapter M10

2009-08-02T18:31:00.003+09:00

No sleep
No sleep until I'm done with finding the answer
Won't stop
Won't stop before I find a cure for this cancer
SometimesI feel like going down and so disconnected
SomehowI know that I am haunted to be wanted

I've been watching
I've been waiting
In the shadows for my time
I've been searching
I've been living
For tomorrows all my life
In the shadows

They say
That I must learn to kill before I can feel safe
But II'd rather kill myself than turn into their slave
SometimesI feel that I should go and play with the thunder
Somehow
Cause somehow I just don't wanna stay and wait for a wonder

I've been watching
I've been waitingIn the shadows for my time
I've been searching
I've been living
For tomorrows all my life

Lately
I been walking walking in circles, watching, waiting for something
Feel me, touch me, heal me, come take me higher

I've been watching
I've been waiting
In the shadows all my time

I've been searching
I've been living
For tomorrows all my life
I've been watchingI've been waiting
I've been searching
I've been living
For tomorrows

In the shadows

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i LOVE lagu itu YOOOO. hahaha apakan. the rasmus - in the shadows

Chapter M9

2009-08-02T18:09:00.004+09:00

these are only some of the GREAT pictures taken by Gmah's SONY. the picnic's a GREAT success, its been a while since we didnt have this much fun. srsly.

xoxo, love you gaizzzzzzzzzz tooo bittzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.

BACHINOMOLEEAAAYYYYY. heck i know you guys miss me saying that :P

Chapter M8

2009-07-31T20:20:00.003+09:00

ABC About You Questions:

A - AVAILABLE: no.
B - BIRTHDAY: 1011
C - CRUSHIN ON:
D - DRINK YOU LAST HAD: mng bliss.
E - EASIEST PERSON TO TALK TO: dibah and mimi and najib and bella, and sometimes fathin, gmah and meow.
F - FAVORITE SONG: bunkface - situasi.
G - GUMMY BEARS OR GUMMY WORMS: wormz.
H - HOMETOWN: jauhdong~ and keriam.
I - IN LOVE WITH : chemistry.
J - JUGGLE: neah.
K - KILLED SOMEONE: about to.
L - LONGEST CAR RIDE: miri.
M- MILKSHAKE FLAVOR: watermelon, mango, chocolate.
N - NUMBER OF SIBLINGS: 4
O - ONE WISH: to wish for more.
P - PERSON YOU CALLED LAST: qahhar.
R - REASON TO SMILE:
S - SONG YOU LAST HEARD: billy talent - surrender.
T - TIME YOU WOKE UP: 7.00am
U - UNDERWEAR COLOR/PATTERN: brown, bitch.
V - VEGETABLE(S): aaa... potatoes.
W - WORST HABIT: swearing.
X - X-RAYS YOU'VE HAD: gigi.
Y – YOYOS ARE: fcked up.
Z - ZODIAC SIGN: scorp.

Random Questions About You:

Spell your name without vowels: ml nzrh.
What color do you wear most?: black.
Least favorite color?:
What are you listening to?: the rasmus - in the shadows.
Are you happy with your life right now?: no.
What is your favorite class in school?: ENGLISH KALI AHH.
When do you start back at school/college?:
Are you outgoing?: no.
Favorite pair of shoes?: my iPanemas.
Where do you wish you were right now?: with my bitches.

THE CANS:

Can you dance?: no.
Can you tie a cherry stem with your mouth?: no
Can you whistle?: no.
Write with both hands?: i can draw with both.
Walk with your toes curled?: no.

THE DO'S:

Do you believe there is life on other planets?: no
Do you believe in miracles?: a bit.
Do you believe in magic?: no
Love at first sight?: no.
Do you believe in Satan?: yes
Do you believe in Santa?: no
Do you know how to swim?: no.
Do you like roller coasters?:
Do you think you could handle the stuff they eat on those reality shows?: no

THE HAVES:

Have you ever been on a plane?: yes
Have you ever asked someone out?: no.
Have you ever been asked out by someone?: yes
Have you ever been to the ocean?: no
Have you ever painted your nails?: no

THE WHATS:

What is the temperature outside?: bet its warm.
What radio station do you listen to?: harmoni ah.
What was the last restaurant you ate at?:
What was the last thing you bought?: dibah's present.
What was the last thing on TV you watched?: angels and demons.

THE WHOS:

Who was the last person you IM'd?: zai.
Who was the last person you took a picture of?: i guess it was gmah.
Who was the last person you said I love you to?: fathin.

CRYING SECTION:

Ever really cried your heart out?: yes
Ever cried yourself to sleep?: yes
Ever cried on your friend's shoulder?: yes
Ever cried over the opposite sex?: yes
Do you cry when you get an injury?: no.
Do certain songs make you cry?: AHAHA.

HAPPY SECTION.

Are you a happy person?: ntah.
What/who can make you happy? :
Do you wish you were happier?: yes
Can music make you happy?: sdg.

LOVE SECTION.

How many times have you had your heart broken?:
Have you ever loved someone so much that you'd die for them?: no.

LOOK AT ME.

What is your current hair color?: black
Current piercings?: ears
Have any tattoos?: no
Eye color?: dark brown.

IN A BOY/GIRL:

Favorite eye color: green? natural sja lah.
Short or long hair: manasaja. preferably long.
Height: taller than i am.
Best clothing:

HAVE YOU EVER

Been to jail: no.
Mooned someone: apakan ni?
Laughed so hard you cried: yes.
Cried in school: yes
Thrown up in a store: no.
Done something really stupid that you still laugh at today: no
Gone skinny dipping : no

THIS OR THAT

Pepsi or Coke: neither.
McDonald's or Burger King: both.
Single or Group Dates: single.
Chocolate or Vanilla: choc.
Strawberries or Blueberries: blueberries
Meat or Veggies: meat.
TV or Movie: movie
Guitar or Drums?: drums.
Adidas or Nike: nike.
Chinese or Mexican: chinese.
Cheerios or Corn Flakes: neither.
Cake or Pie: neither.
MTV or VH1 : neither.

*copy-pasted from MZ's blog. i feel shitty.

Chapter M7

2009-07-30T18:45:00.001+09:00

a few minutes ago....

*checks facebook homepage and saw something*

my thoughts; jalan, jalan, jalan. sikit-sikit jalan. kima. inda pandai teranah.

Chapter M6

2009-07-30T16:54:00.004+09:00

Mcube practically ruined my day today. heck, i guess it was obvious she didnt like me. whatever, lets get this form 5 shit over with.

i feel a bit fcked up today. i dont know why. mcm everyone i see diskulah atu mcm ada rasa hatred. gahd, besetan eh -.- dibah inda skulah and mimi abused me with her stupid suci bottle and gmah's new frisbee.

shoved the suci bottle somewhere i cant tell.
hit my forehead with the bottle
aimed the frisbee arah my head and it accurately hit me.

God, ngaleh bah thursdays ani. no actually EVERYDAY IS NGALEH. andajkdnadjkandjka. ada hikmah disebaliknya~~~ ndjkandajksnasjkdan. ada aussie chem test tadi, the questions were boring. brabis. fell asleep.

AHAXXXXXXXXXXXX0000RRRRRR

Chapter M5

2009-07-29T18:53:00.007+09:00

i drew borders arah this certain sentence arah this amaths paper. i guess i was really paying attention to it more than i was to Cg Yeeny. yatah she saw me and BOOM. dead.

"kalau fail jaga kau mal ahhh"

shit, i thought. kept quiet fer the rest of the period.

Dibah: i think kan mal, deep in your heart, kau ani jiwang.

Amal: the hell?

Dibah: gnya kau express in pens and paper

Fathin: true, true.

sumth i did later that time.

let's welcome a new member of the family

Chapter M4

2009-07-28T22:03:00.003+09:00

just browsing around my folder, and found some funny stuff. deleted the useless, mmbari banci meliat. plussssssss Letto's Ruang Rindu's on repeat arah winamp (oh shaddap, my WMP doesnt work anymore)

i think this was last year. HAHAH emo. well no, its nice actually.

and found this arah my FF folder. i think he's hotter dri c Cloud. Yazo0 4 LyF.

Cloud Strife.

school was okay~ ada form 4's klaie tadi di canteen. c fathin gagah perkasa men-stop durang. aku mcm staie diridiri mcm org cool meliat HAHAHAHA. malas ku bah eh -.- wasnt in the mood tdi. ada this repeater thought that i was in the fight. lol wth man, it was clear i was standing doing nothing tadi (BAD EXAMPLE) hahaha fck la.

dibah the sweetheart bought me a shirt from zara. and this world's longest bubblegum where me and mimi took it straight from her and divided it into half for each one of us. karit bah kami atu. LOL. thnks dibah, mwah xxoo.

i dont know what to type in anymore, fb makin boring, plurk no life, twitter... i forgot my pw. i want a new LCD screen plox. this infra-radiating-green-emitting screen is torture. mutation might soon happen and id be a dragonfly.

9.30pm - cszzzzzzzzzzzxx. nightzx0r.

Chapter M3

2009-07-27T20:59:00.002+09:00

Quotes/Conversations of the day;

Mimi; bah mal, lets ask questions to see who knows each other best.
Amal; bah.
Mimi; what's my fave colour?
Amal; uhhhh *STOP AND STARE~* pink?
Mimi; no
Amal; black? blue? green? *the list goes on~*
Mimi; indaa
Amal; ungu?
Mimi; HAHA majal. i dont have any bah.
Amal; *growls*

Mimi; apa my fave food?
Amal: *looks somewhere else* shanghai chicken chop.
Mimi; shit mal, how do you know?
Amal; i dont, me eksen sja. wait, NO SHIT? KAU SUKA MAKAN ATU WAH?! OMG AKU PUN!
Mimi and Amal; *SHRIEKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!@!!!*
Jalilah and Other People; *SHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!*
Mimi; omg mal, nyaman tuuu.
Amal; i knowww
*the conversation goes on~*

then Mimi and Amal hugged. ciri-ciri bestfriends forever HAHAHAHAAH.

p.s/ after i did my Zohor prayers, went out to the seberang jalan to buy pop ice w/ mimi and fathin. i bought melon, fathin bought chocolate and mimi bought vanilla blue.

*mimi turns, facing the school's gate*

Mimi; OMGGGGGGG OIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Amal; wth? napa eh?
Fathin; OMGGGG
Amal; eh shit CANA NI?!
Fathin; jalan kaki ni eh ertinya
Mimi; palui, malas ku ingau

*i think the maci tedngr kami betriak from afar, so she sorta came to our rescue and buka the pagar. then ya lambai-lambai kami with the kunci pagar. wth man?*

that was scary. mun inda dpat masuk balik, terpaksa tah ikut krita abg alai tu. HAHAHAHAHA.

Goodnight.

Chapter M2

2009-07-27T19:40:00.004+09:00

Assalamualaikum.

how i miss blogging, well not really, since i sorta lost my ability to jumble up pretty cool words to form an exquisite paragraphs of cool sentences. anyway, today's news:

the girl in the middle's HOME! eya nangis ku time becerita sama ya on the phone ah HAHA apakan labihx0r~

i think this chair im on is about to break. jeez, i know ive wanted a sexy butt, but this is too much. chemistry PAPER 3 WAS shizz ._.

didnt finish calculating the garddangit mole.
forgot to add "dirty-green ppt was formed, leaving an orange ppt settling at the bottom" arah a certain observation.
burnt my hand with this stupid splashing acid -.- cemani critanya bah kau ah. the question asked me to heat gently this solution with iron(III) chloride in it. well i think its FeCl3 cause the soln's orange blabla. anyway, i was testing if any gas evolved, so i took a damp red litmus paper (or was it a burning splint? i forgot LOL) and placed it close to the tube's mouth, eventually when i leaned forward to check, the hot solution freaked out in the tube and began shooting out like crazy. and 80% of the hot acidic thingy landed on my hand, and produced this hot-burning sensation. lol panas banar, tapi i stayed calm cause cigu noormah wah invigilating us, so i didnt want to cause any trouble. i washed my hands, and it felt numb. shit, my exam paper's brown in colour. plus my seatmate saw everything, she went "OMGMAL, OKAY?!" well, not in a loud voice, she was whispering duh. which is sorta loud cause all other classmates were looking at the furthest backside of the class, where we, Amal and Amar were seated. i dont know apa hikmah disebalik trajedi tadi.
mimi broke a delivery tube. and i kept a part of the tube, as a souvenir.

will update more later with quotes of the day. mom makan chicken sup. ahax0r.

Chapter M1

2009-07-26T17:34:00.001+09:00

thats Mr Choo. ada "C" lol

Chapter 1000

2009-07-26T16:19:00.004+09:00

a millenium -starting back with one. soon.

anywayy, chem tadi was.. GREAT! scored 73% fer nov07 mcq. i didnt even study. ahaxxxx000rrrr, i wonder when'll miss noorm bgi us past years.

heyyyy handsome~ LOL

Chapter 999

2009-07-25T23:59:00.002+09:00

lol, self-proclaimed 999.

Chapter 820

2009-05-30T18:57:00.006+09:00

saaaaaap hombres. we lost against SGS. it was a great debate anyway. the morning ada sports day. ngaleh jua tu ahaxxxzXzxx. took a bath di jamban surau. srsly, bath as in realllyyyyy mandi. tu dalam cubicle ah. HAHA. disgusting i know. jamban dihall gelap ah, brijap.

how we manage to fit in the volvo.

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after debate, i joined rabi and her st.georgian friends pergi ke st.george. haha, jalan kaki. it took about 15mins to reach SGS from STPRI. yatah on the way atu, drg crita psl the pasts in SGS. yeah, i felt awkward.

hung out with bryan HAHAHA. one hella-crazy dude.

- frag hard go pro

Chapter 819

2009-05-29T14:08:00.004+09:00

liver + blood

someone stole my lipbalm, fck -.-
aku MAU MAIN BOWLING THIS SUNDAY DDDD:

+ why bother, threats doesnt scare her. BUH-BUH-BUH-RUNNN! LMAOZ!@!

Chaper 818

2009-05-26T20:02:00.003+09:00

got this from facebook;

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A. - Adibah

1) Do you love this person? - cintaku seumur hidup.
2) Is this person your enemy? - kalau setannya kluar HAHA.
3) Would you kiss this person? - YAWEHH~

B. - Bryan

1) What do you really think of this person? - A non-believer hahaha.
2) What’s their favorite color? - pink..? HAHA
3) Ever danced with them? - uhh no.

C. - Carl

1) Do you have a crush on this person? - YAWEHH
2) Do you think she/he is cool? - he eat hands, so yeah, he is.
3) How old are they? - i have no idea.

D. - Deena

1) How long have you known him/her? - 5 years.
2) Biggest regret? - she stopped molesting me HAHAJAJAHA
3) Do you hate this person? - nadeh.

E. - Ejai (Zai HAHA)

1) Have you met their parents? - nope.
2) Worst thing about this person? - not yet discovered i guess.
3) Best thing about this person? - understands me well (y)

F. - Fathin

1) Have you ever dated this person? - she doesnt wanna date me :(
2) When is the next time you will see him/her? - tomorrowz.
3) Do you go to school with them? - YAWEHH

G. - Gmah

1) Are they a good listener? - kdgkdg.
2) Have you ever lied to this person? - awu HAHAHAHAHAHA. love you gmahzzzz~
3) Is this person good looking? - she looks like me, in short YAWEHHH! HAHAAH.

H. - Hamizah

1) What grade are they in? - mcm aku ehex.
2) Is he/she your best friend? - uhh...
3) Ever done something illegal with this person? - apa juanya becerita bsrbsr.

I. - Ika

1) What is this person’s favorite food? - fried turtles HAHAHAHJAJAA
2) How did you meet this person? - ya samseng cari klaie sama aku diskulah ugama dulu HAHA
3) Do you trust them? - YAWEHH

J. - Juki

1) Do they have any siblings? - c sarip.
2) Do you know their favorite song? - awu ehex.
3) What would you do if they confessed they liked you? - do uhh... nothing?

K - Kukujiao (najmi)

1) What's the coolest thing they have ever said to you? - "OHOCXX"
2) How did you meet? - from this friggin-old-lagg cs server
3) Ever danced with this person? - aaa... no

L. - Leech (nisahlisahbintah)

1) What would you do if you had never met this person? - i'd be a complete poklen yg inda cukup kain kalau bejalan HAHAHA
2) Why do you like him/her? - pasal rambutnya bebau HAHAHAHAHAHA
3) Would you go to Disney World with this person? - inda, malu ya krg bejalan sama aku.

M. - Meow

1) Is this person older than you? - awu ehex.
2) Is this person single? - nope, im her 38th scandal.
3) How many times do you talk to them in a week? - stiap masa EYAAAAA.

N. - Nazz

1) Do you like this person as a friend? - YAWEHHH
2) Have you seen this person cry? - awu, time kalah monopoly HAHAHAH
3) Do you know this person’s middle name? - bte?

O - Osama (apis)

1) Are you related? - ahm..nope.
2) Could you live with this person? - aaa.... i dont know
3) What school do they go to? - MSPSBS

P - Poklen

1) Have you ever been to the mall with this person? - YAWEHHH
2) How about a sleepover with them? - aku tinggal sebilik sama poklen kali ah.
3) Does this person have a job? - ada. pikir saja kamu.

Q. - Qistina

1) Does this person drink alcohol? - aaa no.
2) Have you seen this person dance? - awu HAHAHA
3) Who do they ” like “? - uhhh lemon tea? haha

R. - Rabi

1) Have you heard this person sing? - dgn ku nyanyi diclazzz.
2) Do you think this person will repost this? - pemalazzz aniii.
3) When does this person look best? - never HAHAHAH nada deh.

S.- Suprizul

1) Is this person taller than you? - YAWEHH.
2) Do you enjoy spending time with him/her? - apa juanya skali time matchz.
3) Do they live close to you? - jauh ehex.

T. - Tungang (qahhar)

1) Would you do anything for him/her? - awu EYAAAAAAAAAAAAA.
2) Have you been to his/her house? - ni rumahnya tah ni.
3) Where do they live? - dihatimu

U. - Usu Suryani

1) When did you meet? - 15 years ago
2) when did you last talk with him? - 15 minutes ago
3) what was your first impression of him/her? - GOT CASHZZZ. HAHAHAHA.

V. - Vinnie

1) Do they have a crush on you? - nope.
2) Would you hug this person?- have no idea.
3) Is this person your friend? - yezzzzzzz.

W. - Wan Mimi

1) Is this person loud or quiet? - melaBANG.
2) Describe this person - insomniac. apakan HAHAHAHA.
3) What color eyes does this person have? - grey, cause ya insomnia everymalam HAHAHA.

X. - !xobile

1) Why are you friends with them? - because russell forced me to.
2) Have you ever gone anywhere with them? - nope.
3) What is one thing you would change about them? - hantah.

Y. - Yazid

1) How old are they? - 14 kali
2) How long have you known them? - uhmm... 6 months?
3) What was your first impression of him/her? - pemarah hahaha.

Z. - Zephyr

1) Does this person have MSN? - yeah. alum ku add.
2) Have you ever made out with this person? - aa.. *peristalsis to people who gets the connection*
3) When will you see this person next? - adeler AHA-HA-HA

Chapter 817

2009-05-25T22:10:00.004+09:00

BONUS PICTURE POST #2

frontal

rear

"calico"

and uhh..... credits to Babu Dayang AHAX.

Chapter 816

2009-05-25T20:47:00.002+09:00

*physics period*

"mal, i wanna be a lesbian."
"aren't you one already?"

*slaps me hard 3 times*

Chapter 815

2009-05-24T19:59:00.004+09:00

PUTANG INAMO.

Chapter 814

2009-05-24T15:30:00.002+09:00

era 1993

Chapter 812

2009-05-22T23:13:00.002+09:00

should i, should i not? 3 hari dah ku bepikir psl ani -_-
anyway, debate's tomorrow again and i feel like doing the umu dance again. skip class again ploxx? ahh... sweetsmile on wallpaper 8) shadap, dont say a word. what a pretty sight to see~ aha-ha-ha-haaaaaaaaaaaaa.

Chapter 812

2009-05-22T16:22:00.001+09:00

ani untuk kau meow HAHA

Chapter 811

2009-05-21T22:58:00.001+09:00

ridiculously fun (y)

Chapter 810

2009-05-18T20:35:00.001+09:00

BONUS POST #1

Chapter 809

2009-05-18T20:31:00.002+09:00

juki's great fossil discovery?
rich rich rich~

- frag hard, go pro

Chapter 807

2009-05-17T21:14:00.003+09:00

TP Teacher's Farewell Beach Party
160509

semua junior ku tu diatas ah. TAKE A LOOK AT MUH POSEE IHIX HAHA. anyway, had fun with them esp SrIman where we competed in facepaintingwithcoal/water/volleyball/firestarting fight HAHAHA. plus truth and dare.

"have you ever break anyone's heart?"
BURN!

"bringing you my sexy back~ YAWEH (8)"

- frag hard, go pro

Chapter 806

2009-05-15T20:33:00.003+09:00

now, im sure,

you'll be asking sympathyshits from people who don't know anything. plus you'll be hanging out with the "bottom-of-my-list-girl"

i have issues on hypocrites. i don't like people who talk without thinking what other people has been through, where in their case, its worse than what you've been through.

"inda ya sadar kali yg dirinya ani hypocrite, mihir"

mmyeah whatever, i believe i know myself and yes, im a hypocrite/two-faced too. so be wise when choosing me as your gaddamn friend. still have that "i-wanna-punch-you-in-the-face-mal" feeling? leave the page, stop torturing your brain/heart/whatever.

notice how im acting now? im still myself, you're the damnshit who's changing. realise that im fading away from your head? thats what you get when stuffing too much "good-stuff" in yourself, it pushes me out, bullshit.

i sorta have this feeling, where the word bestfriends are just lies. i dont believe in that word. not anymore. srsly, with all these attitudes, its all bullshit. i dont like it at all. kalau cakap pun, dilawan. yaweh, kenal ku kali ah kamu ani. after saying this, i know some of you are reluctant to share some updates, im sure. do you sense somthing in this post? its that heart-breaking-feeling im having now. emo much? YAWEHHHHHHHHH aku emo kali ah, i rule in sarcasms, dont you think so?

its a good-gaddamn-happy killer.

- frag hard, go pro.

Chapter 805

2009-05-15T13:38:00.000+09:00

boh jaga, its coming again :OOOOASDOADAS

scream for mercy when you have this gaddamn chance, gamotz.

Chapter 804

2009-05-14T22:45:00.003+09:00

blabla-sarcastic post #1

i noticed some people made changes just to make me notice them and in other way, to make me feel sorry/bad/sober/whatever. WELL HECK YEAH YA'LL DID IT GAMOTS (what i mean is the part where i noticed, not where i feel badblablabla, i dont feel anything at all, srsly)

if my face/words/anythingconcerningme gives you hell or nya org "mmbari mati ku meliat binibini ani eh", then why the heck are you even here? gila cali, mencari maut kamu ani.

main question is;

WHY TORTURE YOURSELF? D:

funny people, srsly.

Part II;

i know~ i've been in bitter situations where crushes/love/whatever's involved~ TAPI KAN WANGGGGG, APA KAU BUAT ARAH KAWAN KU AHH, MMBARI WATIR. idiot.

gila wah, aku mndngr tadi pagi mcm ada spark drg ani, skali malam ani, palui, the truth even hurts me man. sengaja kah kawan binibini mu add ia saja kan menyakitkan hati kawan ku? ahax, buduh kau ah. and kawan mu atu jua. (this concerns some stupid people only, please, jgn terasa who's not it, cause youre just wasting youre time thinking "WHY THE HELL C AMAL BENCI AKU ANI?!" two-faced, i got it, but in this case, its fckin worse than i am.

this blog is meant to be explicit, you haven't seen my past (november/december/january)'s post -.- enjoy reading? TAMBAH LAGI~

o(^(oo)^)o
this pork lives.

- frag hard, go pro.

Chapter 803

2009-05-14T22:34:00.003+09:00

gmah's edit

my edit

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credits to Gmah'z SONYDSCH50.
*cough bakal ku pakai paint. HAHAHAHAHA. faluyx~~~

0B553551^3 much.

Chapter 802

2009-05-13T16:16:00.003+09:00

真黒19;

saturday's gonna be a sad day, i mean it ._.

hot like fayah~

- frag hard, go pro.

Chapter 801

2009-05-12T23:01:00.003+09:00

frag more, go pro.

esuk mathsD june, sandi bnr. plus bio prac.

itik gembogembo.

AVOIDS COUNTDOWN - 5 bitch.

Chapter 800

2009-05-12T17:57:00.002+09:00

mmhmmmm, batah inda ku check this blog.

updates in life;

dejavu's coming back
im losing bits of my life
my scabs are getting ridiculous

other than that, slightly alkali, beekasa.

- play hard, go pro.

Chapter 690

2009-03-13T19:05:00.001+09:00

i am so disgusted with my 2008's posts -.-
FCKKKKKKK LAAAAA~~

2009, better be good.

C690

2009-02-22T00:06:00.000+09:00

how's it fckin goin'?

Chapter 670

2009-01-30T21:08:00.001+09:00

isnt it obvious.
how the world, is trying its best, to ruin myself in deep thoughts?

i sometimes wish i am fcking dead.

Chapter 631

2008-12-06T12:37:00.000+09:00

*stabs brain

ive wasted enough time.

Chapter 631

2008-12-05T12:57:00.001+09:00

what an awesome dream.

you dont even care.

i dont want, it, right now -_-

Chapter 628

2008-12-01T22:51:00.001+09:00

i hate you.

Chapetr 626 - 2

2008-11-30T21:34:00.004+09:00

WTF TODAY'S THE FIRST OF DECEMBER JUA BUDUH.

Chapter 626

2008-11-30T21:34:00.003+09:00

2008's a motherfcker.

pelajaran menurun. hidup inda menantu. baie sial kima.
hari ani. palui. palui palui.

Chapter 625

2008-11-30T21:34:00.002+09:00

WHY THE FCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK AM I NOT HAPPY.

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motherfckfckerSHIT.
SHIT
SHIT
SHIT
SHIT
SHIT
SHIT
SHIT
SHIT
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baie eh. ejaculate on my head motherfcker.

Chapter 624

2008-11-29T09:55:00.001+09:00

this is MOTHERFCKIN USELESS.

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go to hell, mai.

Chapter 622

2008-11-27T19:09:00.002+09:00

you've got a new life?

all these time you were pretending. i could tear your heart out. and eat it. motherfcker.

it somehow made me cry. seeing your face. the memories. fck, they just cant go. fck. fck. fck.

Chapter 621

2008-11-26T22:01:00.003+09:00

Lust.

i might jump and tear your fckin hideous face off.

why is it so hard to tell the truth but yet so easy to tell a lie?
everyone around you, are all liars.

Chapter 620

2008-11-25T23:21:00.002+09:00

fcukedup.

i just can't get through this. im fckin weak. confused. mad. sad. tired. these fckin feelings are fckin mixed up.

things are in a motherfckin rush. why wont they slow down?
i dont want it back. i just want this to be gone. fck eh.

how can i not go emo, if it leads here?
baie. i cant keep this to myself anymore longer. i might fckin burst.
dont rush me. im not fckin ready yet.

everything's carved. i can't just destroy it. it eventually might kill me.
i can't sleep well. i dont eat. i talk to myself.
what the fuck did i fuckin did?
sakit wah. baie kali. sakit.

some fckin promises are meant to be broken. who the fck even made that stupid thing?
that just hurts even more.

fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck fck

this seriously hurts. everyone's a motherfuckin bastard.

Chapter 604

2008-11-12T19:18:00.003+09:00

Have a safe trip to Mecca,
Dd!

doa bnyk-bnyk-bnyk :D
lol, i think i saw you cry for the first time this year tdi time hugging ah. HAHAHAHAHA!

Chapter 601

2008-11-10T22:16:00.005+09:00

Pantai Jerudong's sunset :D
*inda jadi ke JPMC yooo =.=

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Mai ; ookay, enough licking the face kitty o_o"

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the "newspaper-wrapped-cylinder"
this is srsly creative. HAHAHAHA

look, how red i was tadi atu. HAHAHA

EVERGLIDE TITAN! :D

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tau sapa blikan?

Qahhar lah 8)

Chapter 600

2008-11-10T18:10:00.003+09:00

600 SUDAH YAWHAWW!

anyway, sunday's awesome. my camera didnt took a lot, alum lgi ku minta gmbr arah c mimi JEHEHE.

anyway, thanks everyone. i feel like living again.

bah, kalau mau, minta. HAHA.

my boy ♥

Chapter 599.3

2008-11-07T23:35:00.005+09:00

naJirHAM says:
aku tauu

naJirHAM says:
kau online

naJirHAM says:
kan chat sama me <3 color="#ff0000">naJirHAM says:
ehex :)

naJirHAM says:
AHHAAJAHA

. Possibly Jinanaz . 59°F - face down. says:
HAHAHAH AWU EHEKEHEK

. Possibly Jinanaz . 59°F - face down. says:
hahahahaha. aku rindu kau lerr.

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. Possibly Jinanaz . 59°F - face down. says:
aku slalu baca PM mu tu kalau aku online.

naJirHAM says:
EYEA

. Possibly Jinanaz . 59°F - face down. says:
suhweet 8D

naJirHAM says:
EYEAAAAAAAA

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. Possibly Jinanaz . 59°F - face down. says:
bukan hahahaha! she thinks ur cute -.-

. Possibly Jinanaz . 59°F - face down. says:
Paranoid kau ani eh

naJirHAM says:
apeh

. Possibly Jinanaz . 59°F - face down. says:
hahahahahaha

naJirHAM says:
she thinks im what

naJirHAM says:
o_o

naJirHAM says:
sudah tia adorable

naJirHAM says:
kiut lagi

. Possibly Jinanaz . 59°F - face down. says:
kiut? mcm fids thinks ur kiut

naJirHAM says:
JAHAHAHAHAHA

. Possibly Jinanaz . 59°F - face down. says:
HAHAHAHA

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naJirHAM says:
aku hot jua nazz

. Possibly Jinanaz . 59°F - face down. says:
indalerr

naJirHAM says:
baie

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. Possibly Jinanaz . 59°F - face down. says:
aku batah inda jumpa kau kan

. Possibly Jinanaz . 59°F - face down. says:
sbanarnya. reasonnya

. Possibly Jinanaz . 59°F - face down. says:
me malu

. Possibly Jinanaz . 59°F - face down. says:
HHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA WTF

naJirHAM says:
HAHAHAHAHAHA

naJirHAM says:
mihir

JihJir ♥
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Chapter 599;2

2008-11-07T21:09:00.004+09:00

sppllllingtime!

esuk exam PE. written. cubatah practical (running, HELL YEAH! D:)

anyway mallz tdi. nothing much =.= inda ku sampat jumpa c rababii tdi /slitswrist. aku baru sampai, ya dalam cinema, aku balik, ya dalam cinema jua masih. yakah? AHAHAH.

MX518 - $58 SHIZZZZ D:
di KL tah.

i hope everything's fine tomorrow.

plus i got credits for both ICAS and Chem's aussie thingy's quiz ;p wooooot!

some ugly drawings in D:/SHINTEN19

Zulaikha : SHITTT, LUKISAN KU JUA NI MAIIIII!

*coughs
zulaikha's so predictable.

HAHAHAHAAJAHAH!

Chapter 599

2008-11-06T21:11:00.006+09:00

exam HABIS SHIZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ!

blogging time 8D

picture updates!

date - uhh... lupa ku bila HAHAHA.

DIBAH'S PLACEE!

c arif sabri tu, hahah

KA LINDA'S PLACEE.
stayed there until 1am. HAHAH.

WOOT!

cana kan rahmat main tmpt sembahyang ani. HAHAH.

human wave in action.

around ... 12am?

Wan, sleeps everywhere.

my favourites ;p