Chapter M54

Amira Abu Bakar we went to miri with manager tadi..so sad nada kamu :(

fak that. i didnt know. mcm. antah eh.

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he's leaving tomorrow morning @ 12.20pm. masuk gate @ 11am. so after tomorrow, id hafta wait. until november hopefully. this year's gonna be tough. going into form six. everything will be alien-ish, since i come from an all-girls school. guys will be everywhere, told myself to just wait for him, but what if i dont? temptations~ come on, 5 years being with only girls as classmates, schoolmates? sampai there arent any guys to crush on, they take on the male teachers. hahaha man memories being in an all-girls school. but yeah, i wont give up. im not giving up.

22nd September 2009. 2nd day raya. grandaunt's crib. that was... 6 months earlier. i was watching tv, sitting down mcm anak samseng, holding the remote, shuffling channels, then i heard the doorbell, i didnt care who it was, cause i had quite a foul mood that day. i went to the kitchen, fetch myself a glass of water, then came back for the tv. suprised, i saw him, in his gray cara melayu, alone, shuffling channels. his family are at the other living room, chatting w others. he was sitting right on my seat. he saw me, he looked back at me. gosh, i fell in love. i just went and sit at another sofa not far from him. trying to be cool, i asked him "what channel are we watching?" he just smirked and passed me the remote. he's very quiet. i didnt care what we watched. because he was there.

31st January 2010. thats a long time since i saw him in September. kept on praying that ill see him again. i was sitting alone, leaning on the hospital's wall. granny's asleep. usu went to the canteen to eat. i felt drowsy. i fell asleep. a few minutes after that, i heard a salam. i woke up, sat upright and looked at the door. it was his dad and uncle. i stood up, and made way for the bathroom. i looked disgusting. after reapplying a coat of gloss, i went out, suprised to see a lot of people in the room. usu was there, sitting with a couple of aunts on my granny's bed. granny was on her wheelchair, talking to people in front of her. i sat back to the place where i used to be before, and played my games back. the aunts were talking about swimming. automatically, i told them "aku inda pandai swimming hahaha" they laughed and said "bohhh~" i laughed aswell, and when i looked up in the bed's direction, he was there, looking at me, smirking. gosh, i didnt know he was there! he was in black and so was i. he was wearing his flip flops and so do i. fashion sense, he's good. he had a haircut. it looked awesome on him. i kept looking at him. come on, i couldnt help it.

prayers. guts. belief. patience. i want to see him again. i really do.

ill wait. ill try. its going to be really tough, but i wont give up. im not going to give up.